Who’s the Capitán of your ship?
In my day planner, there is a quote printed at the bottom of each week. (Shameless plug: Day Designer is the best thing that has ever happened to me and is definitely one of my best purchases of 2019). One week the quote was “I’ll walk where my own nature would be leading; it vexes me to choose another guide” — Emily Brontë. I'm sure this was meant to encourage the reader in some way to choose their own path and to be the ruler of their own destiny, BUT for me it did not do this. Many think this way, but instead I feel that “it vexes me” to be my own guide.
If I’ve learned anything on my christian journey it’s that relying on yourself will lead you astray. In fact, Proverbs 28:26 warns, “whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered" (ESV). And yes, one could say they are wise and their wisdom can lead, but this is not so. For “the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding” — Proverbs 9:10 (ESV). It is the fear of the Lord that leads to wisdom, NOT trusting in your own mind. And I want to especially point out that fear of the Lord doesn’t mean to be scared as one may be of a monster, but it means “to love and obey God instead of rebelling against Him” as Ellen White perfectly put it in her book The Adventist Home.
There is nothing that God doesn’t know; there is no path God cannot see the destination of. To choose God as the head of your life leads to your ultimate benefit and success. I’m not going to pretend like doing it is easy — it’s simple in essence — just put God in charge — but to do it practically can be tough. Unless it is at the forefront of my mind, sometimes I make decisions without consulting God. But thats the thing, we ought to make the conscious effort to go to God in regards to all our decisions. Sometimes it’s hard not to trust your own instinct first, not trusting what seems right in your own eyes, but I will also tell you that trusting God’s guidance is the best decision you could make.
So, I’m sorry Emily Brontë. I think you got it a bit off. I’ll walk where God would be leading; it vexes me to choose any other guide. I’ll let God be the captain, or El Capitán, of MY ship.